Sunday, July 13, 2014

Here we go.... again!

We are going to adopt again!  

I have a lot of words rolling around in my mind.  Every time I reach up to grab one or two to put them on here, I freeze.  My husband put his thoughts into words, so I'm going to share HIS thoughts for now.


One of the most common questions I get from folks is, "Why did you choose to adopt?"  The answer, though to many, may seem complicated, is really quite simple.  You see, we are faced with choices.  Thousands of choices - daily.  

Do I want to hit the snooze button?
What should I eat for breakfast?
Should I fix my hair a certain way or wear a hat?
Do I drive the speed limit?
etc., etc.

The choices are endless. While on this rock, we have the choice to be comfortable or obedient.  Our choice - obedient.  Adopting isn't easy.  In fact, it's very difficult.  Mounds of paperwork, fundraising, waiting, travel- and that's all before getting our children.  Then comes the re-building phase; establishing trust, bonding, sickness (physical and emotional), and healing.  But in he end it all becomes worth it.  

You cross over the threshold from adoptive family to just... family.

So if you haven't heard, we're going back.  This time God has told us that our Lili Beth is ready for us and waiting.  I'm not sure what that looks like or how long it will take, but I have a choice - comfort or obedience.  Honestly, I'm nervous; make that very nervous. It's not an uncertain nervousness, it's an excited nervousness.  So if you've been called to adopt and you're waiting for the "perfect" time, it will never come.  If you're expecting the utopian "Annie" adoption, it's not going to happen.  Prepare yourself for many sleepless, screaming, crying nights.

And then expect those same nights from your children.  

But honestly ask yourself, "Would I want someone to hand me over a championship title when I didn't work for it?  Would I want heroic accolades for a job that had no meaning?"  If your answer was no, then you are a perfect candidate for adoption. 

Hosea 6:6 says, "For I delight in loyalty rather than sacrifice, and in the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings." (NASB)

Ben Sternke writes, "Sacrifice in this sense is actually an attempt to gain independence from God.  If we sacrifice for him, then we have put him in our debt.  If we sacrifice for God, he owes us something (so we think).  Sacrifice is a way of "buying" whatever we want to get from God (protection, deliverance, provision, favor), while at the same time remaining independent from him.  Obedience, however, is the response of someone who is in a relationship of trust with God.  We trust God, we depend on him, we are interactive with him, but he takes the lead.  Obedience is better than sacrifice because we are letting God be God and staying in our proper place with him, the place of dependence and surrender to his goodness."

So now what?  Well, our commitment is to God.  And if that means discomfort now for comfort later, then so be it, because I know that even in discomfort my family will be blessed.

We're coming, Lili Beth!  As God's timing is perfect, we're coming!

Saturday, July 12, 2014

2 Years Home!

Two years home.  

They have changed our lives so much.  

They have shown us what the love of our Savior is all about. 

We cannot imagine life without such wonderful blessings.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

7 Months Home

Wow, what a difference 7 months can make!

Taken July 9, 2012

 Taken February 9, 2013

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Breaking the Silence....

In the early days of our return from China I would update the blog in my jet-lagged state at 2 am... wide awake.  

In three weeks we will have had these two little munchkins in our arms for SIX months.  Oh wow.  
The time has completely flown by!  

If you have ever entertained the THOUGHT of adopting.  
Please do.  Really.  

Yes, really.

I am tired and my house is a mess.

But oh, the JOY!  

Pure joy.  

In October Eli celebrated his 2nd birthday:

Since their birthdays are quite literally 30 days apart, we had a birthday party for the two of them:

And then on December 5 we had Ian's cupcake:

I have had people tell us what a wonderful thing we have done for these boys.  

I beg to differ. 

These boys have done a wonderful thing to us.

They have stretched our hearts and caused them to overflow with love and adoration.  

Big Brother and Big Sister absolutely adore their siblings.  
They have told us often that, 
"It's like they have always been a part of our family!"

But of course, we are a very silly family:

If you had asked me 2 years ago what our family would look like today, I never would have dreamed it would look like this.  

When God tells us to do things that we are afraid of doing - because they are BIG things, like, oh, maybe *ahem* adoption....

It is because He wants to bless us beyond our wildest dreams. 

My advice?  

Let go. 

Take the leap.  

Be obedient and do what He says.  

Because the JOY is unable to be measured.